It takes a night to make it dawn - Jason Mraz

I haven't really start an entry quoting Mraz's song for a long time and I miss it.
Jason Mraz is coming to town and I know Jason has been crazing to get the tickets. I would love to see Mraz's performance but I am not the sort of that would drop dead in front a mega star.


I would be happy just to read his blog (well inspired and written) and listen to him singing when I feel like it.
Unlike Jason, he would go to youtube to watch his performances, try to sing every of his songs and even capped on a hat for the Mraz's style.
It is abit o_O,disturbing. HAHA!




It takes a night to make it dawn.
It often takes one action for another thing to happen.
I have been reflecting my current situation and I know it's my bad. But I wouldn't think I could handle it better anyhow. I guess sometimes life just happens the way it happened.


You may think you are stupid enough to make that kinda mistake but think, you wouldn't be smart enough to avoid making that mistake then. Even if you were to avoid that mistake, would you feel happier stuck in that situation?
You'd probably stuck in that situation wishing you did something about it.
Hence can you still call that a mistake?


That, I am referring to me.
Should I not choose to part with Jason that eventful day in January, would I be happier anyhow?
I guess I'd not. I would have probably spend my time thinking about what I could have and find myself locking in.
Our relationship had been too long and it had reached a point whereby we are not moving. More often than not, we find myself trying hard to smile to each other, trying to relieve in something when we know it is no longer there.




This parting has indeed taken a lot of me and I am still trying to live with that.
So much hurt and so much agony along the way, yet the answer to live with that is still to communicate, talk to each other and forgive.
Forgiveness seems like an easy job to do but it takes alot to achieve that everyday.
When you wake up in hurt every morning, it would take alot to learn to let go and forgive what caused the hurt.


Forgiveness is not a one way ticket. I guess in life, it is a cycle. You can't expect one thing to happen without something causing it and it causing another thing.
When I want to forgive the hurt done, I have to seek for forgiveness for expecting things.
That~is what Shireen taught me.=)


Although I still think forgiveness is subjective --Depending if the person is worth it or not, but I think it is a wise lesson in the end.


So back to what I'm saying...This parting made me realise how much I had miss having Jason by my side. The things we had been through, the things we had done and the things we could have done.
A lot of times, I felt stupid for doing the things I did but I come to realise, I couldn't have done it better then.


It's not saying that I am having it alot worse now. I am not. I know my friends care. Tonnes of messages etc filled my phone and I am grateful, touched.
And I guess I got what I thought I wanted. In a way, yes...It is still what I wanted but I know, I want a clear future with Jason more.




I know I can't have best of both worlds and I would never think of that. If I still have the opportunity to choose, I would know what to choose.
That doesn't mean I would not regret. I would still regret but I guess, c'est la vie.


Other than it being a cycle,it is too full of opportunity costs.


I just don't know when would it be and really, do I still have the chance?

PS: Don't you miss my face in my blog? Muahahahahaa.

I miss the volume of my hair. Sobz. But without the flat hair now, my hair would remain in the dying stage.

Oh well...